So I wander and I wait.. I've distracted myself with impatience. It echoes within my weary mind: "Be still, and know that I am God." Yet I remain restless. It is ignorance, really. No, pardon. More appropriately, it is lack of discipline. Constantly I dizzy myself with th future. Over and over again I question the motives of the Almighty. But who am I? The timing of the flesh is once again merely a selfish desire that is so often seen as some sort of obligation or necessity.

Lately, I see things through narrow vision. Or quite honestly, I see nothing at all. It echoes within my weary soul: "Lord, Be thou my vision." Yet I remain blinded. Again I ask you, Who am i? Who am I to overlook th work of the Lord? For me, he moved the sky. For me, he turned an abusive, neglecting family into something beautiful. He healed me. By I, in my carnal being, demand my future. Soon I will learn to savor this peace, this beauty, this healing. I know that He is preparing for me something heavenly.

It will all unfold.